my life memories

bad luck follows...

2007-08-29T05:02:00.000-07:00

its been 5 months since my last post.
today was a really gloomy,downspirited and monotonous day.
i am-just like everyone else-burdened with homework and the prospect of returning to "Hell" every weekday morning 725am..faithfully.

bought modelling clay to construct organic compounds.exams are coming in 3 weeks time.really stressed. havent been sleeping much for the past 2 weeks. took the chance to get some sleep this afternoon and i just woke up.

was having dinner with my sis the other day..she mentioned how attached i was to my present class,501..though i agree that i pretty much like this class i'm afraid that this class has some divisions and fissures amongst the cliques.i will not mention who with whom, although there is definitely more than one group..he she they them.
i dont really care anymore. afterall...its about time i kept to myself. yes, my grades are more important that anything else.Its not hedonistic but more of a agreement i made to myself last year. "save yourself before u drag anyone down with u.''

2007-03-12T03:59:00.000-07:00

Theres the office right there(up) and theres the dilapidated vent up there(up).

so folks, head on to this restaurant off bendemeer road..Its so pathetically small and and the people are so outrageously ridiculous. U'll know where to go when your grandma wants a Big Birthday Bash.u bash the people there.=p

what a way to celebrate.

2007-03-12T03:32:00.000-07:00

was supposed to have a quiet and close dinner with my family yesterday, also to celebrate my birthday(9/3)..
most unfortunately, we went to LW restaurant(initials were used to prevent a law suit) which has proven that not all food critics speak from the heart.
For beginners, the service was utterly horrendous. The lady who served us seemed extremely impatient and even uttered the words"eat fast and leave fast.." most audibly. My sister, not someone to be trampled on was outraged and wanted to leave immediately. Next, came the lady who served us hot chinese tea. She talked rapidly in fluent mandarin and almost SNATCHED our cups and poured us tea.The problem is on many occasions the tea almost landed on me and my mum because her kettle pout was facing us. We were enraged, but did not leave as their food was "well acclaimed".
The food came in a rush( nearing 7 where most reserved seats are taken) and was DUMPED on our table.We looked almost like starved humans who haven't touched food for years. The food was way way below standard.
Dish 1: Lemon Crispy Chicken
Rating:***
Dish 2: Sour and Hot Sichuan Soup
Rating:***
Dish 3: Braised hot plate tofu
Rating:**
Dish 4: Spring Onion hot plate beef
Rating: * and 1/2 *
Dish 5: Sin Chow Fried Rice
Rating:*** &1/2 *
Dish 6: Braised Yee Fu Noodles
Rating:NO STARS.

Next up, some disgusting photos of the restaurant so u won't go there next time.PS:
its on BENDEMEER ROAD.

2007-03-09T06:14:00.000-08:00

(left)scrumpcious choc cake(dark chocs=)) from angela and jean..=)
(up)-tigger baby from angela and jean=)

extreme left,me and esther!
two cakes from sihui and esther..

dark and chunky choc tiramisu=D

too many things to say...let the pics do the talking, ya?

HAPPY bIRTHDAY TO ME!=)

WENT out with angela and jean today afternoon..surprised me with a chocolate cake..and a tigger baby!=0..really nice of them..haha...went to catch Just Follow Law with angela..hilarious show!...=)..sis called and we went to eat dinner at Sakae(Hei) sushi...=p..after some handphone accessories shopping...we called it a day and went home to rest...esther suddenly called and asked for my house address...haha.
she appeared at my house in 10 mins flat and brought two cakes..=o..
so sweet of u la..:)

took some photos (above) with her..

its been a great day..=)..thanks to all who remembered my birthday..=p..<3s!

2007-03-08T02:54:00.000-08:00

me and rashidah at whitesands mac.(above)

what a day.went to school to hand in my verification slip and left during the break..it was barely 9 when we reach whitesands mac..

saw some familiar people there(wont name them for security reasons=p)..was at mac with rae and rashidah until around 10..

waited patiently for the library to open to do some self study..however ,our patience run thin as the library did not open till 11..

headed home for a nap and realised that my brother's friend,Joey was around..kind of noisy in the living room but managed to sleep well..=)

Gosh. i'll be 18 tomorrow!..most queerly, i have gotten my birthday presents from my Dad,Mum and sis..in no particular order:

....a Nokia N73

....A new school-cum-outings bag

....a wallet with metallic silver clasp.

haha..so exciting to know that i will have no more surprises in stored for me tomorrow..

besides...there is no school!=)

study study study

2007-03-03T04:15:00.000-08:00

went to tampines library to study with esther today.really crowded for a saturday-non-exam-weekend..managed to find seats and went deep into mug mode..could only finish one chapter of economics notes..esther( she is really fickle=) )..decided to go and get something for her dad's birthday -which is tomorrow.after some fruitless searches, we decided to grab a bite at BK ..studied 2 chapters of geog and then we couldnt concentrate anymore..so..we decided to talk about our personalities ( some weird COMPASS lesson personality test).....

i feel really crappy cos she was studying j2 stuff and yet i m still at j1 topics..=(..however i am determined to turn this new start into something fruitful..i must start behaving like some ravenous omnivore hungry for good results..i want my As !..time to move on..

what a life.

2007-03-02T04:16:00.000-08:00

..today is the release of the A level results..it was great knowing how well the previous batch did..sad to say..i did not enjoy the same fate as them..A B for mother tongue wasnt what i expected for my chinese..although it may sound like i am reaching out for the stars, i was truly hoping for an A..I am seriously worried that a B might cause some problems for me when i get my A level results in one and 3 /4 yrs time..i m not sure if retaking my mt is a good idea cos i need time to settle my other H2s and H1.

what the heck should i do?

tired.sleepy.tests..zzz

2007-02-26T07:05:00.000-08:00

there's math and econs tests tomorrow.Consecutively!..i'll probably do badly.sometimes they say last minute revisions makes matters worse.i'm going to take that gamble.=(
really exhausted from school..i feel a huge sense of dread just being in school.its not the people.neither is it the lessons.i just feel extremely sick..for NPR...must hang on for the sake of promotions..=)
Age has catched up upon me as i type..eyelids are heavy.brain is overspilling precious information in the capacity of litres..ahh..typical singaporean's life.
*****going to catch some sleep soon.hopefully.nites.*

a picture speaks a thousand words

2007-02-25T02:43:00.000-08:00

Pic 1: Outing with 06s213..tampines Mall=)

Pic 2:My collage of 07s501 and Phobos 7=)

a very boring saturday!

2007-02-24T05:05:00.000-08:00

yeah.its me again...havent been blogging for ages.
stopped practising maths to write this post. Anyway, i am feeling kind of empty right now.Not in a "i want food" kind of way but more of a subconsciously-subtly-melancholic/lethargic kind of way..
been behaving very weirdly these past weeks.i forget almost 50% of what i had said to my friends,keep repeating things that have been mentioned.sometimes, i wonder if it will be permanent.=(
chinese new year is here/was here/is going...surprise surprise..cos i have lost weight instead of gained weight after the fattening new year..=)
econs is killing me-geog is being kind to me-maths is slowing down for me and chem is finally approachable.=p
i really hope i can put in more concentration when i do my sums,essays and maps.o.0..sometimes i wish time can stop for an hour for me to catch up with whatever i have lost...
birthday in about 14 days time..great.i m 18..
18!..i feel like damn old already.just leave me at 17 please.=s
i hope i can go out tmr..haiz.=(

1st post of 2007

2007-01-14T03:29:00.000-08:00

haven't been writing for a long time..but who cares..no one reads this blog ,ya?

school started for a little over a week already.i miss 06s213 so much..u'll never understand the feeling of being so near and yet so far away from your friends..made some new friends in 07s501. They are really nice people. But, somehow, there is an awkward generation gap.No matter how hard i try to fit in, there will always be a barrier between us..i feel terribly awkward and uncomfortable to be mingling with jc1s and my uniform makes it worse.

Being away from my class for so long woke me up from my long slumber to work harder smarter faster in this new year. its my last chance. for redemption.

New Year Resolutions
stop dreaming, start working.

Mummy's Birthday tomorrow.=)

2006-12-13T03:45:00.000-08:00

i havent blogged for a long time due to my realisation that it's quite useless to write since nothing much happened.tomorrow the 14 of dec is my mum's birthday.havent got anything for her yet..
x(..its been a really bored month..besides books, there is only the big telly.
People often say that u tend to think about the unthinkable and unfathomable after u get bored. Of course i spend time thinking about death. I mean..what really happens when we die?go to heaven? go to hell?
or is it just a big RECYCLING project.?===imagine newly dead souls floating to the skies while the ones in the "waiting room" up there just wait to come down as newly born beings... that is another possibility too.well, or maybe when we die, we just evaporate in the air to become nature...Sometimes, i feel that heaven and hell are the answers to the good-doers and bad-doers.they might not even exist.-might just be consolation for the good and Limits for the Inhumans.well....looks like i still have a long time to think..

share my joy

2006-11-13T19:51:00.000-08:00

yipee!!!the end of the road for PW...CALM ME DOWN.
ok.its time to start planning on my holidays.
my brother just reminded me.
yes,this is an online diary-without the privacy.
whch means..
anyone from anywhere can see what i wrote.that sux.
so.---the end.

time to move on

2006-11-09T21:34:00.000-08:00

Move On-b

when they tell u there's no chance
when they tell u there's no way

don't let them ruin
your fond memories
don't let them take away
your heart-
your dreams-
whatever that is MEANT to be

time will show
it will tell
nothing will ever
be your stumbling block

things will turn out fine
i just know it.
so it's time
it's time-
to move on
from where we left of

-b

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2 days to OP..

2006-11-06T02:18:00.000-08:00

whoa.
i must really start getting organised.all the slides(do a double check)all the scripts(preferably not to use them at all)..Q&As (make sure u are prepared.)

=)
had a very unpleasant day today.i m prosecuted to a day's worth of unhappiness..for something i did not do...
hmm..sounds familiar huh?
well..i m planning to study my way through nov and dec and work at the same time...hopefully this can reduce the friction between me and my family.ok..back to OP preparations and finalisations.=(

sunkissed!

2006-11-05T05:05:00.000-08:00

=)....great saturday out..

saw cute little jellyfishes in the water...at the bridge above the waters...BLUE in colour!...^-^
how cool is that?...hot hot day...sat at the breakwaters and probably at the wrong timing..
quite red in the face now after all that sun..

terrible month of October

2006-11-01T20:29:00.000-08:00

it had been a hell of a month..
i miss the carefree times when i can just sleep for hours at home...catch a movie..without worrying about what consequences i'll face.
i miss my class though i still see them around.bye, guys!
i miss my endless hours in front of the television trying to figure out what the artistes were saying in a language i didnt understand.

October
been busy trying to find my true identity.
i really need a time-a place-a world-beyond this shores.
i guess all i did was to irritate everyone around me.A lvl mt is tomorrow and yet i feel trapped. beyond my control.

if i could turn back time...maybe all this nonsense would not have happened.
this is not where i want to be.this is not what i wanted to do.

i m so sorry

2006-11-01T02:37:00.000-08:00

argh.

My fifth blog already!
keep forgetting my blog address and username.

sorry!